Click on the arrow to listen to the ceremonial calling in of the elements for a beautiful Despacho offering, and may your heart be filled with light, joy and gratitude. Munay!_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________July 17, 2021"The things that we're running from are only chasing us because they're not meant for us to avoid. Discomfort pursues us because it has something to teach us, and we'll never receive that important teaching until we stop running from it. The soul needs them in order to transform and to evolve. As an example, a great loss will break your heart, but there are few things that will produce greater forms of compassion and empathy in the world and for others." ~ Mateo Magee
On December 19, 2020, I was struck with deep physical pain in my right leg and hip. This wasn't the result of an injury or fall. It was as if my body decided that this was the day I was to stop walking or moving, and literally forced me to lay quietly for days on end. I'm still learning to live with this pain, which can be debilitating at times, but what I've come to see so very clearly is that, in being forced to be still and quiet, I had
to stop running. I was forced to sit with
the pain and discomfort, not just in the physical realm, but at a very deep level. My heart was in such pain that I could feel the pieces breaking. I could hardly breathe at times. It was excruciating.
I began healing slowly at a core level which I can only describe as miraculous. Pieces of my fragmented soul from other lifetimes returned. Pieces of my beautiful inner child that had left and gone into hiding to avoid pain and suffering came forward. As I embraced every piece and aspect of me, no matter how painful the memory, or how deep the wound, the softer I became. It's as though my soul decided "it's time to be whole again". I couldn't run away or avoid the pain anymore. It knocked me down on my knees for a reason.
I learned that I can't live without myself, my entire
self. I learned that no one defines me except me. I learned that I'm not a victim, rather, I'm a victor. I learned to stop blaming others for my pain and suffering, and to take responsibility for my actions, thoughts and words. I learned not to judge, but instead, speak my truth from a place of compassion. I learned that I was born innocent and magnificent, and that my previous beliefs of being trash, less than, not worthy of love, and not valuable, were belief systems and impositions placed on me by others. I learned to value integrity and honesty in relationships. Most importantly, I learned to walk away from those who lie to me and betray me, and who hide behind masks because of their own fear; in essence, those who do not care to honor and respect me.
Many epiphanies, indeed, some unbearably painful at times. Just as the beautiful lotus rises up from the mud, so has my soul risen out from the depths and into the Light. I am deeply in love with Charlene Cooper Ayuso Quintana Ramírez._______________________________________________________________________________________________________________January 2021
I had the honor of being interviewed on Austin Bitzas's podcast, "Life as a Secret Yogi". Austin is an amazing individual on a quest to help people find their "inner yogi" as a tool of self-healing and growth.
His YouTube channel, Secret Yogi
, hosts multiple holistic practitioners of different modalities. Austin's podcasts are inspired by his gratitude and his love of helping others.
Apple Podcast Link: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/life-as-a-secret-yogi/id1514954154?fbclid=IwAR3mvj11xPbsl5gi4hY2sC_TGCSTWKL-gjH_CvPh8kI31A7nepSXn_8f3gE
Via Austin's website: https://www.secretyogisociety.com/podcast/episode/1f7373ac/interview-shamanic-wisdom-and-body-talk-withcharlene-ayuso-cooper